Me

[kingandy]

I am, basically, a bit shit.

I'm talking about the way I keep in contact with people.  I don't.  If I don't actually see somebody physically I simply don't bother getting in touch.  Part of it is that I assume they have other, more interesting things going on in their lives - if they wanted to see or talk to me, they'd call, right?  But it's also that I'm just fundamentally incapable of doing things.  Even when I genuinely want to phone somebody it's always "I'll give them a ring this evening ... tomorrow ... the next day."  I just never get around to things.  (The two do go together - if I remember I was going to ring somebody I decide it's too late and they'll be doing something already.  But usually I'll just forget.)  It's easy to think Livejournal has made me lazy but actually it's increased my communication levels by a considerable amount, because I'm doing the same as I ever was but now, hey, Livejournal.

So if I don't get in touch, it's not that I don't love you.  It's that I'm shit.  Sorry.

Comments

[my-mundane-life.livejournal.com]

I'm just the same - low self-esteem in part I guess.
I suppose the thing is you might think 'oh they'd get in touch if they wanted to' but they're probably thinking the same thing and then you're in a stalemate with both of you feeling as if the other just isn't bothered - I think that happens with me a lot.

[kingandy]

But they have interesting lives! More interesting than meeeeee~!

[my-mundane-life.livejournal.com]

Doesn't mean they don't find you interesting though!
Anyway you just have a different life to them - which makes it interesting to the people who don't have it I'd have thought - maybe?

[zheers.livejournal.com]

im sort of the same, apart from the low self esteem. that manifests its self in me in other ways. basically laziness - lots of it - it the reason for no visits..


its not that i dont love you, its cos i cant be arsed...

rockworld maybe this friday?

[kingandy]

Well, if you promise to love me. And don't leave any marks. I guess I could be persuaded...

though the irish bar does sound a lot better.

[pax-draconis.livejournal.com]

I am, basically, a bit shit.

Don't explain; be less shit.

[anberu.livejournal.com]

>_>
<_< *stretches out and touches* *flees!*

[kingandy]

I'm trying, but it doesn't usually work...

[stsquad.livejournal.com]

Do or do not, there is no try.

Ya know, that little green guy makes a lot of sense, especially after half a bottle of wine.... *hic*